An Old Boyfriend

I received a phone call from an old boyfriend and there began a big testing in my life.  He called to say he was in town on business and wanted to connect and catch up.  Hearing his voice triggered memories from college days.

I learned our situations are similar: we’re both married with children and grandchildren. Like me, he became a Christian years ago and is involved in Christian service. We talked awhile and exchanged email addresses.

The next day I received an email. The following day there was another.  For some reason, when I’d see his name in my inbox my stomach would tighten–butterflies?  Like a teenager, I was foolishly becoming infatuated. I sensed the feeling was mutual.

It was on the 6th day when I knew in my heart this would only lead to trouble. I knew it was wrong and it had to stop.  I decided to write him my last email:

“There is no good reason for us to continue corresponding. I think it’s best that you not write me again. If you do write I will delete it before reading and I will not respond. I’m glad to know you love the Lord Jesus. I will pray that your love for God will continue to be strong. I will also pray for your marriage—that your love for your wife and her love for you will grow deeper with the years.”  I signed it, “In Christian love.”

The letter was finished, but I discovered I could not click SEND.  I didn’t want to send it!  I was in a spiritual battle held firmly in Satan’s clutches.  I began to cry big tears.  I didn’t really want the emails to stop!  I even imagined running into his arms as I did when I was 19.

Desperate, I cried out to God. “I can’t do this!  Then I used the name JESUS: “Help me Jesus!  Help me Jesus!”

That very moment Jesus saved me from Satan’s power.  I clicked the send button and IMMEDIATELY the infatuation was gone.  It was over!  I was overwhelmed with joy! Satan was defeated!  I went to my dear husband and gave him a hug.

My thoughts of that old boyfriend disappeared.  I praise God that I never heard from him again!

Why did I share this story?   It’s because I believe many of us are vulnerable to the schemes of the devil.  Satan is a thief who wants to steal, kill and destroy. He wants to steal our faith.  He wants to kill our Christian witness. He wants to destroy marriages. We need to be alert to his tactics.

“Thank You, Father, for Your faithfulness in allowing me to remember to call on Jesus, the name above all names, for supernatural help when I needed it.  Thank you for your immediate response to my cry.”


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About Kathleen

God delights in working through His people as they submit to Him. Jesus said to go into all the world and preach the good news to everyone (Mark 16:15). No matter where we live on this planet, people are separated from God because of sin. We ALL need a Savior, and there’s only ONE. It brings me great joy to share Christ with the lost and lonely. Over the years I’ve learned a great deal while facilitating Bible studies. I’ve found myself on college and university campuses, the beach, the streets, the hospital, the jail and the juvenile facility for incarcerated teens sharing God’s message of love. I also serve as an online missionary with Global Media Outreach. I’ve seen countless lives transformed when people turn away from sin and turn to Jesus. The changes God makes are real and lasting. These are some of my experiences. NOTE: My stories have been altered, removing any and all identifying factors. This includes names and other particulars in order to protect confidentiality and anonymity.
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12 Responses to An Old Boyfriend

  1. Yelena says:

    Great read! Thanks for sharing. I feel as though this happens to most of us. We must remain strong in the Lord and not give in to our desires. There’s a great rap song by Andy Mineo, (a Christian) called “Curious” which talked about the problem of being curious of past relationships. If you’re not a fan of rap you can google the lyrics, they are really relatable. 🙂
    – Yelena

    • Kathleen says:

      Thank you Yelena! I think you’re correct in that most people go through similar experiences. I will check out the rap lyrics. Thanks again!

  2. Karen says:

    Thank you so much for writing this story. It means so much that you are putting it out in a public forum. I think it is important as Christians that we share our struggles with The Enemy aka Satan. My son was shocked one day when I was sharing part of my Christian Walk with him. I had told him that it took me awhile to “trust” God. He was struggling with his walk with the Lord at the time. To hear that his mother had struggled and would again, might have made his walk with the Lord a little easier.

    Sometimes people look up to long time Christians as “infallible.” They think we never sin anymore. Telling your story is probably helping someone this week in their walk with the Lord.


  3. Dee says:

    I’m proud of you
    You stood up for marriage & so should we.
    You’re a good example to follow.
    For all you do may God bless you always.

  4. Dorothy says:

    Thanks for sharing this post. Oddly enough, I recently dreamed that I saw an old boyfriend (from ten years ago) from school that seemed as real at it could be. I had such mixed feelings (of both joy and guilt) about seeing him and talking with him again. It was awkward because this was someone I once had strong feelings for, but things are different now, and I can’t let myself get too close or involved. But I was still curious about his life and what he was doing, so (in the dream) we continued to talk. Suddenly, my brother appeared out of nowhere and said, “Why are you talking with him? You’re married to A.” and instantly exposed my growing feelings of guilt out in the open. I felt my face flush, and my old boyfriend got up and said (to me), “We have nothing more to talk about.” and left. After that, I woke up with the strangest feeling of shock but also relief that it was only a dream. Perhaps it’s natural for us to think back and wonder what came of the other person, but sadly this curiosity also leaves wiggle-room for the devil to mess with. Although this was only a dream, your post today was a good reminder that (even if I did to see him again in reality) it really is best to stay away.

  5. Liana says:

    What really stood out to me was using His name Jesus, in a ‘desperate’, in this case, very emotional heart tug from the past.

  6. joanne cole says:

    You are so right in that this is Satan’s snare, and it would have ruined your ministry, which is what Satan is all about. Calling upon the name of Jesus was the right thing to do. I wonder if reconnecting with old friends through or facebook, or whatever is a problem in this area. Kind of think that those in their 70’s or 80’s are looking at these old flames as they were in highschool…and not currently…as grandparents!

    • Kathleen says:

      One only needs to attend a high school reunion, JoAnne! The last one I attended made me feel as if I was at a gathering of senior citizens–and actually I was! It took awhile before I was able to recognize some!

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